Do not Rush Time…

There will be many storms passing

And she will be left bitter, sad and alone

She shall still continue to hold on to hope

Run, an inner voice bellowed

Holding on to her foot long faded grayish blue gown by side

She ran as fast as she could

But the flow of the river pulled her back

Those river always flows backward

They are full of whim

And has the power to suffocate with a tiny hunk from past

Which has no life, no meaning

She thought she could manipulate the weather

But she were manipulated by the strong wind

Her thirst increases where she paint those hunk

With much brighter color

Only to bring more pinching pain to her soul

Those memories are transporting the demon back

They are called melancholy  

They can never be escaped as she continue to run

Holding on to the demon can save her now and ever

But its only known to the winds

Remorse, remorse, remorse

Uproar all the chilly wind flowing around

And all she knows her current heart is a ghost

Full of passion, solitude, ignominy, vanity, betrayal

And she continue to run!!!

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The Ramen from Korea

They say, there is a fine line between passion and obsession and I think I have gaily crossed that thin line and cavort from passion to obsession. I am not guilty about it at all.

We all have that one place we want to be in without challenging any of our outrageous desire but be in the moment. Having Ramen in Korea is one of those passion I have been holding up from long and it clearly have turned into obsession during the pandemic when I know I yet have many more months, days, nights, hours to be in that moment.

And when you are obsessed you wanna create a situation replicating the actual one which by the way never occurs. Your brain happily shoot up the image and make it look much beautiful then it actually going to be. Your heart raise faster then needed and after a lot of straggle between your heart and brain you finally take that decision.

Yes, I did it and ordered the RAMEN only. Thank god to today’s technology that I could get it in my comfort without travelling 1000’s of miles.

There are 5 pack of different flavor and I am once again confuse which one to go with 1st. While, I take another long road to decide on that and share the final product with you all.

Hold on to it till then… you will not be disappointed !!!

Nothing went right so we took left

It was pitch dark outside and the slow flow of rain made the sound of tick-tock, tick tock on the roof of our TT. I was gazing outside the window and drifted to sleep.

Boom!!!

We all woke up from the sudden sound and soon realized that our bus has come to a halt. We shouted to our driver asking what happened and in a sleepy tone, he gave a response “I am not sure”

We all got out of the TT one by one. And there were three set of people.

1^st set of people, feeling shocked and just wanted to reach the destination.

2^nd set of people, enjoying the weather during this break

3rd set of people or rather a human being, ME, who was super annoyed to be woken up from my sleep.

It all started that day at 8 PM when we were supposed to leave Bangalore for our most awaited trip to Chigmangalur. We had it all planned. Hour by hour, day by day, night by night and I guess second by second too. But how can a trip be completed without any complication and lots of bump?

So were our trip too…

But we did not lose our hope and managed to get started from Bangalore at 10 PM. And it was only 1AM when we encounter a bump in our journey. Understanding the situation, it was finally revealed that our driver was sleepy and was moved away from the road hitting a big stone bringing us to the halt. So we decided to take a break so that driver can take some rest, freshen up and we continue with our journey.

I was finally awake and started to walk slowly in the pathway, soaking in the aroma of the air while the wind blow on my face and hair. It was an amazing feeling. No thoughts were running in my brain after a long time and I was in the moment. Slow rain continued and time by time lorries/truck passed by flashing the bright light on us and honked before drifting apart. Those head lights felt no less than a pair of big curious child’s eye. A sudden breeze left me cold and I quickly wrapped my arms around me. It felt like I was already in my destination.

My friend called me back to reality and once again we started with our journey.

Our driver started to feel sleepy again to our surprise and could not drive that well, which made us take yet another break around 4AM. But the break was to our advantage since the nearby place was breath taking.

We let the driver sleep in the Bus and started to walk toward the open area and found few shops open and inquired about the place. They informed us that if we walk for another 1km, we will reach a view point for sunrise. Hearing this brought back our enthusiasm and we decided to go for it. Walking looked difficult since the road was muddy and wet from the last day’s rain and it was still dark. Chill cracking throw our bone, we continue on our path.

Our tallest friend who was way ahead of us shouted, “guys, comes fast and look”. We ran towards him and was stunt by the view. It was a huge curve of land covered with the greenery till the end we could stretch our eyes.

We found a spot and waited for the sunrise and at the same time super hangry. Our tall friend volunteer to ran back to shop and get us some food. And we all in one rhythm said yesssssssssssss.

Another friend joined him. It took them a while to come back and we continue to enjoy the view.

Our friend were back with hot Maggie in plastic cover and handed 2 of us each cover, we dig in and it was time for sun rise.

Sitting in a spot, hot Maggie in our hand, and a green land in front of us… the sun felt like a new plant blooming from the ground and connecting the land with a bloomy red sky at 1^st then painting it to a beautiful orange color. No amount of words could describe that moment.

Happy with filled stomach we started back to our journey to Chikmangalur.

This Journey taught us a lot. Knowing that we will be late to our destination and stop cribbing for the current situation and turning it to our advantage is all about our look towards the current situation. It’s all in our head where we can take the situation we want to take. And we decided to take the situation as our early start of trip rather than being upset on not reaching the destination.

I await for more such trip!!!

Travel- A lot more then the word…

Travel is much more then given in the definition. The whole meaning changes when associate with a particular human being. And the meaning enriches as the human come from different country.

And as the human being evolve, travel evolves too and bring a total new flavor to it.

Yes, I am a traveler and my journey is much more important than my destination. This journey could be the walk from my home to the super market or the journey from my country to a whole new country.

Walking and absorbing the surrounding and getting a whole new prospective with every inhale of the air of information, my database changes.

And while in the early morning thinking of Durga puja which is going to be different then ever took me back to the days I did a lot of pandal hopping. Yes, this time there will be no pandal hopping there will be no buying of new saree, there will be no more excitement. But I will make my Durga puja memorable because I am determine to do so by turning the pages backwards and walking those path again.

Right now I am in that time… time where I stand happily in the line of getting bhog, laughing, drinking in the loud Durga Maa enchanting of the Mantras… And suddenly I am distracted, distracted by the conversation the two guys are having about my current company.

I increased the listening power, cancelling all other noise but their. I love my company BTW and its always mesmerizing to hear other’s opinion.

Well they did not much appreciated the company and thought my company will not survive the current acquisition since the acquiring company is much bigger than our company. I am still in my company and my company is doing well and did further more acquisitions.

Sometimes, its our personal hope not dented by anyone’s opinion is the hope all we need.

Awaiting for Durga Puja….

Jai Jai Maa

And She is waiting…

I do not know if you feel the same way.

I do not know what you feel at all.

I just know that you are always in hurry.

Hurry to reach on top of the world

In the form of career, money, happy photos and so on

I also know most of us are in the same race

But in the process do you know that I don’t know what you truly want.

I have told you thousand times what I want but I don’t know what you want

Is that you yourself do not know what you want

Or what we see is actually what you want?

Do you don’t feel the need of connection

Connection with those few people whom you can expect anytime around

Or you really want to do all the things alone

Showing the world you don’t need anyone even in your lows

Or do you want to become a person who will never be touched by the lows

Well that’s not possible as non on the earth can be untouched by the low.

Without the lows we will never raise

A wise men said once, there is always reason for everything

Then why cannot there be a reason for us to move together

I am just waiting to find the reason

To accept that we were never meant to be together

Or waiting for a reason

To open our eyes to show the bigger picture

About which I am totally unaware!!!

The wait shall continue

But I shall never lose my hope!!!

Down the Lane!!!

Dear Chiyo,

Today while in market, I decided to go to the our favorite lane and it was a good decision.

While I walked down the lane in the autumn afternoon, the smell of drying leaf took me down to my memory lane. Sun was shining over and the breeze has become considerably cold which brought a chill and I wrapped my arms around me tightly.

Walking in there with no vehicle passing by, the only sound I could hear was the sound of dead leafs moving in all direction near my foot. Carefully keeping my each step to try to reduce the round of mur mur, did not help but it did ease my mind. I was soaked in the moment and took deep breaths to fill my lungs with the aroma of the moment.

I did not realize and was standing at the gate of the park we went many times. I gave few thoughts and finally decided to enter the park. Took a round and looked around, enjoying the view and finally settled on an empty bench. For a long time I just looked into the distant with blank mind and then took out the book I was carrying.

I will not tell you the name of the book because I know you will google about it and I will then not have the opportunity to tell you my version of this book. Until I finish the book, stay curious.

Your Love

Soul walk continues!!!

She was confident standing there

she felt, she did right

abandoning those thoughts, people and place

She was once again on her own

Abducted in the aroma of those words

Walking bare foot, eyes closed

As she knew where she was headed

It was a rule already in there

She just had to abide

To reach where she was destine to

The wolfs have protected eyes on her

And the beast too lazy to jump on

But did all this really matter?

As now the time has come

Time to shut done all the ray

To abloom on the path

Path continue to long for her

And the tall stood tree gathered together to bow her

The misty wind is naughty again

And just the brush to her make that woo sound

Not to her but bring shiver everywhere

Flowers, thorns, leafs, mud and each particle on the earth

Want to rip away her beautifully stitched hazel attire

As its time, her soul come out to meet them.

But its step by step before she reaches that point

Soul shall be tortured to be purified

To be ready

For the new dimension

No soul should cross that long frozen bridge

Before each particle has been ripped

And ready to reunite

And the walk continues!!!

1st letter after you have gone

Dear Chiyo,

Its been only few weeks that you have left but it feels ages. I have missed you more then anything.

Every when i leave home to catch the train, I am enthusiastic. By the time I board the train and settle in my seat, i am still enthusiastic. I take out my ipod and select our favorite song “Who let the dogs out”, play it in full volume. By the time i have listen to it for more the 5 times, I have already made a note of the things I am going to discuss with you.

My stop comes, i get down only to realize you are not waiting to join me anymore. My enthusiasm starts to die and I walk towards the college. Changing the songs mindlessly in ipod without really knowing what i am listening to any more.

I need to write more and need to post this letter but I am not enthusiastic about this too.

Until then…

We cannot be friends anymore!!!

You want to be still friends

But then there is no meaning to it

Just the way a traveler needs to continue

Even if he finds the best river to stay

And make a home he always dreamt of

He cannot stay!!!

We cannot continue to be friends

As I am not in old years any more

And want more from life

Want more from me

You are still in that old world

Ignoring the current world

Want to stay in your well

And any addition to your life

Made you feel, I want things my way

But that’s not truth

I want you to explore the world with me

Only to find out my every attempt

Made you thing, I want things my way

If we start to think in that direction

Than you have used me for life time

As I have not learnt or gain anything from you

But you got all you wanted from me

It was easy for you to say: “do not interfere”

I will not and so do you!

You took our relation as a task

But I took it as a connection

And I would not want to be with you

Until you understand at least the least

That this relation is just a relation for me

And not what you think

Yes, it was said out loud

Those years does not matter

But only those time when we can

Catch each other’s heart

And it was also said out clearly

Everything changes in life

Except the “CHANGE” which stay constant

I wait for another change hoping to bring good

only to find myself left alone again!!!

THOSE EYES SAID IT ALL !!!

It was unknown as the wind struck her hair
Butterflies in her stomach were still asleep

Yes, there was a crowed after a long time
That made her happy
Happy to see more people, new people
She feels that we are a part of crowed
And it’s our part to cherish it

But then came a beautiful slap

It was not expected from a long time
And she did not know what to do

Confuse just like a pearl in a big ocean
Waited and waited and did what a pearl would do
She let herself swap in the waves only to reach a place

Place so beautiful that she could not come to help

And fell in the moment, in those eyes
They were brief yet strong enough to leave here mesmerize
And the universe can guaranty
That those eyes too were in the moment!!!

She wanted more and more

But was scared of an unknown fear
Fear that she never understood but stopped her

She did not lose hope
She did get another beautiful moment
But again her fear came covering
She did not lose her hope once again
And continued to wait!!!

The butterflies in her stomach are now awake
And she shall not let them sleep now
never again!!!